5days before the exam

Ok... It's finally here.. I'm not I'm still in med school next year but I guess in a way I did enjoy my experience.. It wasn't any moment but throughout this past one and the half years, I think I changed a lot. I never actually studied for anything hard and always I had past years to save me or something. This time I feel like I'm going in blind. Almost like the first year exams except that time it has less materials to ask from. Definitely I hope I pass.. But if not.. It was a good run. I've learned that some times it's really true about what they say.. Loving what you do.. Cause in medicine unless you're really disciplined.. You would really need to love medicine to actually commit to memorizing all the information and reading, listening and looking at all the medical materials and term day and night.. And sometimes when you speak, you find ur self using words people don't understand.. At least it was like that for me... But for now, all I think of is getting the exam over and seeing how it went. Then I can plan what to do.. Lol though on forethought after the exam I might cry and can't think of anything also. Haiz..

Why I wish I was overseas...

Hmmm.. Now as exam is drawing near... I kinda wish I was overseas... Not to have fun.. (though that thought keeps popping up) but somehow I think although everyone says they miss home when they are overseas. Some part of them do enjoy the experience of being in another country for education purposes. I want to feel like that.. Like I'm finally away from home and starting a new chapter of my life.. Really hope I can pass this exam.. Think if my new chapter has something to do with medicine it'll be even more awesome.

Nervous-ness

Alright.. Now as i get closer to my exams.. Im starting to get nervous. It's a double edged blade. It pumps me up but scares the crap out of me. :/ I know im not ready and the worst part is i dont know how to be ready.. Form 5 i didnt really care.. or at least tuition was good enough for me.. A levels.. I had past years to track my progress. Now in medicine, i feel so lost.. im sure there's something i dont know.. and its a lot. :(

But i guess i took this path and stuff. :'( Hope i get through this. Just pass. :/

First time posting with an iPad..

Well this is just to try out blogging with an iPad.. Can't really find a good free app for blogger.. The only one is for an iPhone and it looks crappy when used on an ipad.. :,( hope blogger develop an awesome app for blogging with an iPad soon.. And for free too. :p

Side bar... Trying to study with light snacks.. I don't usually like oats but this biscuits aren't bad. :)

Life experiences - Diving

I was going to complain or bitch again.. or emo.. but then i thought hey.. why not just use some time and see what have i done with my life so far.. well one of the best experiences i have to say was diving..

I took my diving classes in a diving centre and in redang. It was awesome. A song that comes in mind when i reminisce is "A whole new world", yes.. a disney song. But its literally like that. It doesnt feel like dropping into water and praying sharks dont eat you ( mind you, i was hoping to see some sharks during my dives but i didnt manage to) but it feels like entering a world where you can float and its really relaxing. No longer any worries, just swimming and hovering around, looking at beautiful clorals and fishes... I WISH I AM ON A DIVING TRIP NOW!

Well actually this is already my profile pic

The corals in redang is beautiful, wish i have a nice shot but i dont have it anymore 

( more motivation to go again)

Image from a video clip where we tried to take a group picture but got into each other's way. 

We were new ok.. hovering still a little clumsy

I tried to choose pics without other people's face in case they dont want it on the web.. but this is the darkest already :P Three of the people getting the diving license on the same trip.

well i did a mistake with my harddrive and lost a lot of photos.. whatever i manage to salvage wasnt very good. but up there's some of it..

It was really fun.. and i really hope everyone could experience it at least once in their lives..

Awesome song

Current Life Status

Well, its 4 am in the morning so i think i can add insomnia to my list of "bad stuff happening to me". 

I think i might be experiencing depression, although i do have the tendency to start diagnosing myself with every new disease im learning from my notes. Depression isnt one of them. I'm looking at myself and seeing myself turn into the people i've worked with over at the mental health association during my first semester. Pulling myself away from people, feeling sad all this time, inability to focus on what i'm supposed to do. I really have to start to buck up. By some miracle that i did manage to pass this coming semester 3 medical exam ( which i really hope to God some miracle could happen or someone would come and tell me something - give me some hope or something) i want to be a good doctor. I cant procrastinate any more.

I can continue reading about how to handle procrastination and how to stop depression, or even eat pills, which i know could help me. Just like caffeine, i could take them and be super awake, but no matter what i take or read about it, i know the most important thing that i need to accomplish is to breakthrough. 

A lot people would turn to God. Seriously, it would be what i would do years back or even a year back and i wish i would now too. I just feel that i've lost touched with Him for so long. I lied about going to church even to my parents. The worst part being that now when i sin sometimes i dont even feel bad. I know thats going very far already. 

But somehow i know that its all on my procrastination and my inability to care.. I need to get my life back on track, push myself to get going to do STUFF. anything productive and stop myself from letting my brain go on neutral. That's the key. 

To God knows who whom actually did read this post... thank you? and hopefully the next time i would be able to post that i am changed and that im being productive.

Update on life..

whoa.. i cant seem to finish reading.. so much.. wish i dont need rest..

Update complete.. (thats my life now..)

Relatives

Well today I was just waiting for House, MD to be downloaded and I got curious cause I've been thinking of whether I have long lost relatives... Maybe a grand uncle or something.. And I googled aw... Nothing.. Except something about tiger balm... I felt a little sad after that.. I didn't think I would have a long lost relative that's super rich but having nothing at all just made me feel lonely..

Like somehow theres no one out there connected to me., which makes me feel perhaps I need a legacy.. Not so show off or anything but something to pass down so that generations later can say " hey! There was this cool ancestor who left behind this for us! "

That would be awesome. :D


Wheeee!!!

Location:Lorong 11/4f,Petaling Jaya,Malaysia

It's over

Well.. Time to update.
Exams are finally over., for now. I have to say I didn't do well. Badly in fact. And I'm not kidding. :/

On the other side of things.. Nope. Nothing. Tonight is definitely not a good night to blog. Emo moments.. Have u ever had a moment where u see two friends talking but they stop when you approach them? If u were ever one of the those two people who would stop talking when a friend ( or at least if u consider the person a friend)... Ok. This is confusing.

A and B talks. C comes to them and suddenly A and B stops.

If u are people like A and B, and if u care about C, please. Do one of two things.
1) continue talking.
2) go find somewhere quiet and don't let C see you.
Or well 3) don't befriend C

Cause I've been C and it sucks. It might seem small for some people but it means a lot to me. It shows either you dont trust me, or you don't take me as a friend. Cause from now on, I can tell you. A and B, I no longer consider them as friends. Friends trust each other. At least I believe friends trust each other.

Well on the bright side, im feeling better. I know it's weird I blog and rarely tell anyone about it.. But in a way I feel less unhappy when I type it out here.
Wheeee!!!

Location:Jalan Dato Mahmud 11/4,Petaling Jaya,Malaysia

Trying to pick the right one.

Currently, im loving this song. seriously. LOL not because the video is showing a lot of pretty girls. Haha, thats good too but the song is so true. There's a lot of pretty girls and i think everyone is just trying to find the right one.

:S

When your parents learn to use the kitchen

It's been some time since my parents decided that they would try to utilize the kitchen. And now.. They started playing ' masak - masak '. I get to eat home cooked food every alternate days and I'm thankful for that. God knows how long I have till I might have to survive on outside food when I go overseas. Haha. But now I am their lab rat. Testing out "new" dishes that they created. Sometimes it's nice, sometimes it's not. Lol

Hopefully I'll survive.

On the other side of things. Today I started reading. Hopefully it'll help for the test. ;(



Wheeee!!!

Location:Lorong 11/4f,Petaling Jaya,Malaysia

Short Visit

Well... Back for a moment..

This post is going to be a rant...

Just done with something called problem based learning.. (PBL) took me a while to remember what the heck is PBL.. keep using pbl until i forgot. Anyway... it wasnt exhausting.. but recently.. i just feel moody..

When i first made this blog.. I put alone and lonely. Emo.. getting through life in this world.. and all that.. But you never truly learn what it means to be alone and lonely when you are part of a group "supposedly" and yet you feel like an outsider. That's what lonely is. Its better if you're not even part of the group. Then at least you know you're not.

Listening to What are words by chris medina and im just.. haiz.. there's loyal people and there's just.. people.. How often would be able to find loyal friends? not often.. so appreciate those who are. Even loyal friends.. some you just cant click or u dont feel like clicking. Its plain exhausting. Finding people who you can get close to and are loyal. They are harder to find than gold or silver, diamond or ruby..

When one finds loyal friends,

Precious time with them he spends,

And when the day finally ends,

He knows with them he never pretends.

How precious are those friends to him,

When they are not with him its like a phantom limb,

Hurts as hell and tears fills his eye's to the brim,

His mood and face shows nothing beyond grim.

Neither diamonds, rubies, gold nor silver,

Could bring him more joy than being together,

Longing for loyal friends burn like high fever,

That he could be with loyal people forever.

On the bright side.. At least i did do my work now.. instead of going to PBL and act smart.. LOL

CV

This is the first time i wrote a CV.. i dont even know if i got it correct or not... But hey.. First time then got to post up here la.. :P

CV

Personal Statement

I’m a medical student starting his second year. Generally, an average student who would not be able to resist joining the student body or anything similar. I would say currently I have a goal in trying to twin to the United States and hoping to gain any help I could get to achieve it.

Education

International Medical University (2010 – current), Bachelor in Medicine, Bachelor in Surgery

Taylor’s University College (2009-2010), Cambridge A Levels, 2A* 2A 1a

SMK USJ 12, Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia, 8A1 2A2 2B3

SMK USJ 12, Penilaian Menengah Rendah, 6A 1B

SK Seafield, Ujian Pencapaian Sekolah Rendah, 5A

Experience

Volunteer (2009), Medical Trip to Cambodia, assisting doctors on medical trip, provide medical support for village without medical attention, medical support in prison,

Intern (2010), Malaysian Mental Health Association, provide assistance to rehab officers, teaching clients on writing skills, planning entertainment and activities.

Part time Staff (2011), Powerista Technologies, assisting exhibition and providing information to visitors, exhibitor for new products

Post held

Assistant Head Prefect, SMK USJ 12, in charge of Logistics department and PA department, assisting head prefect in delegation of duties

Captain, Sports House, SMK USJ 12, delegating and finding members for competitions, handling participants from house during Sports Days and training

Vice President, Recreation and Rebotics Club, SMK USJ 12, assisting the president, brainstorming ideas for club activities

Secretary, Cadet Police, SMK USJ 12, leading marches, in charge of writing reports for meetings, minutes for meetings, assisting teachers during club functions

International Relations Director, Rotaract Club, Taylor’s University College, building rapport among clubs from different districts and countries, assisting in club activities, managing event such as seminars

Key Achievements

2^nd Runner Up, Taylor’s National Accounting Competition (2008)

5 ‘A’s , Top Achievers Award, Cambridge A Levels, Taylor’s University College

School Representative, Petaling District 2008, Chess competition, SMK USJ 12

Certified First Aider

Certified PADI diver.

Interest

Really enjoy reading novels and fictions, watching comedies and catching a movie in the cinema with friends.

(i cut off the top part with all my personal information but yes.. i included it in my CV, got that part right. )

:D

50 first dates

i rewatch this today with close friends and it was nice. touching to be more exact.

half way through my friend asked.. can someone really be like that and he wasnt asking about the losing their short term memory.. he was asking if someone can really stick on to a person even though they would forget them..

i thought of course la.. love is strong.. then again.. no la.. its just a show.. adam sandler wouldnt have developed those feelings so strongly with meeting only one day..

but later i began to think.. its a decision.. he didnt fall for her hopelessly. but he made the decision that he loves her and he stayed. it wasnt hopelessly in love, but strongly in love. binding cause he wants to be near her. :S

i wonder if one day i would ever be like that.. ;p

John 15 (he wouldnt give you up)

"He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit,"

I am not a christian who is fruitful.. Strike that. I think im fruitless. :(

Whenever i read this i usually will go crap.. im dead.. oh well.. since im going to be dying then might as well enjoy myself and be happy right? Don't waste my time being sad.

But yesterday, when a pastor was preaching and i was falling asleep, he shared this.. the words 'cuts off' in Greek = airo which means :

1. to raise up, elevate, lift up
   1. to raise from the ground, take up: stones
   2. to raise upwards, elevate, lift up: the hand
   3. to draw up: a fish
2. to take upon one's self and carry what has been raised up, to bear
3. to bear away what has been raised, carry off
1. to move from its place
2. to take off or away what is attached to anything
3. to remove
4. to carry off, carry away with one
5. to appropriate what is taken
6. to take away from another what is his or what is committed to him, to take by force
7. to take and apply to any use
8. to take from among the living, either by a natural death, or by violence
9. cause to cease

You see.. the first meaning is not to cut off or throw away but to lift up, apparently gardeners do not just cut off the branches if they dont bear fruit.. They are way too precious, every branch.. but they would lift all these branches who dont bear fruit, clean them and tie them to make sure they get enough sunlight and nurture them back so they would be fruitful again.. patiently waiting for them.

I was really touched by that. That God didn't want any of us to die.. or be thrown away.. as the gardener he's still willing to lift us up and wait.. nurturing us.. every hoping we would be fruitful...

QR codes.

Anyone there??

I just found out a friend read this blog. =.= came back after a long time.

THAT was awkward. not the 'long time never chat' but the 'someone reading my crap' awkward.

This so called "blog" is all about emo-ing and posting crap up. I'm going for a change i think. Seriously going to use this blog and post up stuff about myself and life's experience. Maybe it'll serve as an online diary, journal or scrapbook..

Yeah i know.. era of blogging is over and all.. but hey.. i'm a slow learner. LOL

:P

Rm 300 and counting...

First rm 300 i've earned. :D

Of things to lose...

I'm pretty sure no one reads this again. so its safe to type whatever i want.. :S

Crap.. Lost a friend's belonging.. I've never been much of a responsible person i guess but i have never lost anything not belonging to me.. and now.. i lost notes belonging to someone important to me. Shit. =.=

Of all the times to lose something and of all the things to lose.

Damn. Not a good week.

Is it me?

Well when conversation goes blank who's fault is it? I think its mine.. Its sad.. i cant keep up a good enough or interesting conversation. haha. pathetic. That's all i have for now..

In the darkness...

no.. im not having an emo session right now. haha not like usual i guess but literally in the dark. lights in the room are not switched on. I feel tired but i dont feel like sleeping.. sometimes i wonder if there's something wrong with my internal clock already...

On the bright side! Weehee! Earned my first three hundred ringgit today. :D I think i just might put a pic of it on this blog. not now but definitely soon. haha. if not it'll be gone. :P

Tomorrow's going be a long day.. Its an outing to midvalley and I'm still not asleep and I'm tired. When i sleep.. difficult to wake up.. :( Guess i'll go sleep de.. night world.

Wavering

Yes.. I had a game plan. but I'm beginning to lose focus.. Though i just came back from a trip from kuantan, my eyes are tired, a headache is starting.. argh!

Some things i've made up m mind but now.. i'm not so sure.. am i ready to do this? oO

Well on the bright side, there's been progress on studies. That's a start. Feel like going out.. It's been a week almost. haha.

I'm watching this show.. Where a guy comforted a girl he used to like, and he makes sure he tells the girl he loves now about it, making sure she knows. She asks him.. " why are you telling me this?" hmm.. I think a guy would want a girl he loves to know everything about him and what he's doing right? What if she finds out the wrong way? What if she doesnt like it? @.@

Anyway.. besides the romance.. again.. bored.. i want to go out. :((( hmm.. dialing now.. :P

Uncertainty

Life is full of uncertainties. Everybody knows that, but we don't realise it all the time. Most of the time, (at least me) we just live life enjoying not worrying about what the hells' going on tomorrow. Of course there will be moments that hits you in the face.. Like what the hecks' going to happen to me? Now this is one of those moments.

From now to Dec 2012 = IMU medical course

Onwards? *Blank*

I was always debating between taking the USMLE, or going to canada. Not really the UK.

But now a university I was aiming for left the partner program. I cant twin to Memorial anymore.

:(

I've also heard from a senior that the cost to go to Jefferson in the United States would go up to about 700 thousand ringgit. Oo No way am i going there.

So now I'll have to look at Aberdeen and Dundee. The two most wanted uni in between my batchmates. Great.. Although I know sometimes in life.. well most, you have to compete with others to get what you want but I've always tried to keep myself away from competing with other people.. expect this one time in April where I ran for elections against some guy who pisses everyone off and still wins and a girl who now i kinda wish i didnt run against but am glad i did cause if not i wouldnt have gotten the chance to meet her.

Well all I know now is life's going to be different. No matter what happens, after this holiday I must change. For better or worse.. the life i've been living would not work for what i will have to face.

Happenings of the Day

I went for a scholarship interview today.. I wasnt sure what to expect but it didnt meet my expectations.. If that made sense.. Went KLCC super early in the morning and none of the shops were opened. They would only open at 10am. I was told during the interview the most I would get is RM 20 k if they award me the scholarship. It is a lot, don't get me wrong but its less than what i would need to make sure my parents have the money for my brother to go to any university he wants. Yes... he says he doesn't want to go to Ivy leagues or anything but I don't want to have to take that option away from him

My parents gave me a talk about money and tuition cost but it was now.. when i tried to apply for scholarship that it really hit me.. how much can my parents really afford? They dont want to tell me but i doubt it would be much.. :S

On the bright side.. watched She's the Man. Thats funny. really brighten up my day. And of course whatsapp too. :D

Game plan

Well

Game plan

1) get all the notes of sem 3 (DONE)

2) start guitar classes.

3) Make my work out schedule.

4) Revise my sem 2 stuff

haha, one done.. guess thats 25%? its the easiest one in the list but hey, one step at a time right? :P

In uni today.. only a few people here and yet its noisy in the PBL rooms. Dunno what the heck people next door trying to do. But cant blame them la.. I'm not studying also. Busy typing this message. Not really disturbing anything important.

I realised something today.. I say a lot of things but never make them happen. I must stop this habit. =.=

Got an interview for Maxis scholarship on Thursday.. Its only the first round so nothing much la.. But i wonder is

a point to go. Probably wont get it.. Yes, negativity. but its the truth, not trying to be pessemistic. I guess its good too.. as an experience. ?.?

Bored...

Go out a lot nowadays since its holidays.. but it is getting boring.. sometimes.. and this is one of the moments. :(

what does it mean? i get sick of school, studying but when holidays here.. i can get bored?? what do i want then? oO

Arrghh!!

Headache..

Well, now that i've locked this blog.. Here is to destress and stuff. I'm having a headache and i have no idea why. =.= not enough water? i think so... Was supposed to get a mask and clean my room but couldnt and didnt even think of doing it.

Parents was talking about having a game plan so that my holiday dont come to waste and as much as I dont like them telling me what to do... they are right.. I need a game plan and i need one pronto.

Game plan

1) get all the notes of sem 3

2) start guitar classes.

3) Make my work out schedule.

4) Revise my sem 2 stuff

5) this is not a joke. I'm serious.. get a system in place and im keeping this list short. I've made long list before and it never works. Short list and i hope to complete it. At least I know i done something then. :P

Crap

There was a few moments when i felt maybe hmm.. i should change the title of this blog. Life's not that bad anymore. :D but today.. i've felt it. The feeling when i first started this blog. The need for me to write things here. I know a blog is supposed to share your feelings and such with people and not this. To write about your crap emo stuff and put it online. But i just feel better after..

Life sucks. People can give you all kind of motivational talks and quotes. I have to say I can give better quotes than most but in the end, :(. nothing. No quotes, no talks no nothing can help you if you're depressed. Only yourself. I thought maybe if you found someone special? Nope. I just found it more depressing. Maybe if you had friends to talk to about life? They can listen but then what? It still ends up the same. I cant do it much longer.

All my life, i've lived on miracles. Not major ones like ressurection but minor ones thats important to my life. Now i think its time to face to music. And it sucks.

I thought I found someone special to talk to. I thought we connected on every level. But no.. In the end, it was a fantasy. It was imaginary. And the truth hurts. Not THE TRUTH. but the truth but maybe there isnt any romantic crap like those on tv. people just need the idea to survive their lives. And although i can accept that. It just sucks.

I've had enough. No more day dreaming. No more fantasies. No more.

Day 10

One confession

I debated on what to confess about? Deepest darkest secret? Person i like?

I think i'm going to say the truth..

I have seriously no idea what to do in life.. I told a lot people about what i want to do, my plans.. how i want to live life, but truthfully when i think about it.. there's no enthusiasm and its all going along with the motion. I sincerely have no idea what i'm going to do and it kinda scares me. :(

Day 9

Two aspirations.

1) Being someone who do not procrastinate

-most people might laugh at this but for me, the most serious problem i have is procrastinating. Always leaving things not done and waiting till the deadline...

2) Becoming someone who would not worry about money and able to do volunteer work

-well its not about being so rich i dont have to work, but by having a job that can cover those periods of time i would be able to spend a month off to go maybe cambodia for a mission trip..

Day 8

Three turn ons

i think this post would be the weirdest.. most weird.. ah.. i'm not going for perfect grammar. I'll go with weirdest.

1) Having long hair

-i think girls with short hair are a little tomboy? Girls should have long hair. Makes them more feminine

2) Willing to get dirty.

-no i'm not talking about being extra horny. I mean literally dirty. Girls who dont mind walking in the mud or run around instead of being picky about everything even the need to walk only on carpeted floors.

3) Loves wearing a skirt

- long hair.. skirt.. well mostly a feminine girl but not of the sissy kind.. :P

Day 7

Four turn offs...

1) Wearing clothing that exposes too much of yourself

-seriously.. if you are wearing clothes that aren't going to cover much, then there's no point in wearing anything.

-i wouldn't start calling anyone like that a slut.. but i would feel that way.

2) Girls that are too touchy.

-if we haven't got anything going on and you're already touchy then i'm not sure if its anything special next time when we're close.

3) Being snobby

-If you're going to act like you're better than anyone else, fine. You're too good for me. I would not like you or even think about it.

4) Wearing thick make up all the time

-although i would find a girl pretty with make up, i would not want to be with a girl who needs to hide herself behind powder and artificial colours.

Day 6

5 things i can't live without

1) As i mentioned above, my laptop.

-everything is in here...

2) Air cond

-yes.. its a luxury, but in malaysia some of the days are just HOT, as in malaysia's been put into an oven

3) Underwear

-maybe i'm trained but I would feel very weird without underwear.. boxers feel a little weird too

4) Water

-this is not only because to survive, but somehow i love drinking plain water.. it actually taste sweet to me..

5) Friends

-thsi is cheesy again.. but hey! i love cheese :P (ok lame..) but everyone needs support. so do i. :D

Day 5

6 things i'm afraid of.. i think this would be the most difficult. I'm afraid of a lot of things..

1) People having problems with me.

-i guess i really hate working with people with attitude problems and i'm afraid others would think that way of me. :P

2) Losing my family

- i lost my grandfather when i was standard 4, and i couldn't imagine losing any one else.

3) Failing my exams

-this sounds nerdy but now i'm getting afraid. Before this i've never really put in effort in everything i do, and i want to change that. Hope its not too late.

4) Making someone angry

-ok.. this is serious, the idea that someone's angry at you.. is bad. Of course if its mutual, i dont really care. but when the anger pass.. it doesnt feel so good. :(

5) Losing my laptop

-everything including my diary, my shows, my songs, EVERYTHING is in my laptop. If its gone... THE HORROR

6) Not being able to watch HIMYM ( how i met your mother)

-i cant wait to see the mother!!!! If the show stops now.. :'(

Day 4

7 things that crosses my mind a lot

1) Would I ever be able to come back to the Lord and be a good christian?

2) Why can't I become more hardworking but only write about the need to put in more effort?

3) How life would be if my parents were really rich? yes.. money minded i know..

4) Friendships should last no matter what happens.. How?

5) How can people be so inconsiderate some times? Do I seem like that to others? I hope not..

6) Why can't I just open my mouth and speak whatever I want? It just clams shut some times.

7) Food. It crosses my mind all the time.

Day 3

1) Reply my messages quick whatever messages it may be

-shows that u're interested in talking to me...

-don;t keep me waiting..

2) Smile when you see me

-cause that will melt my heart. really

3) Saying good night

-sometimes if we chat until late night, or stop halfway through, and you would wish me good night and sweet dreams.. it shows that even before you sleep, you would think of me.

4) Laughing when i tease you and teasing back

-then it will be really fun to talk to you.

5) Calling me sweet when i do something for you

-a lot of girls will call guys sweet though so i'm not very sure but i really like it when a girl i like calls me sweet.

6) Quiet and shy around new people

-haha this might mean the girls really introvert but i guess i'm like that so i would like to find a girl who's the same.

7) Remembering stuff about me

-it shows you care whenever i talk

8) This last one might be weird but liking How i Met your Mother

-its my favourite show and when a girl quotes from it, i feel an instant connection for some reason..

Day 2

Nine things about myself

1) Generally a shy guy who feels uncomfortable around new people, unless mixing with a bunch of friends and new people.. :P

2) Someone who wonders a lot of weird stuff... =.=

3) Never been in any relationship before.. I have no idea to be proud or sad of that fact.. i think sad. LOL

4) I wouldn't read blogs if i'm not interested. Wouldn't really go blog hopping..

5) I would only love to watch the tv when a comedy is on and my whole family watches and laughs along.. otherwise its just sad and boring.

6) Truthfully very indecisive, so sometimes people can't bear with me.

7) Although this might be a little gay, but I like the prospect of romance. Being truly in love with one and only one person with the other loving you back. I would want to have only been with one person and marrying her.

8) I have no idea how to dress, I do not shop for clothing. Only when necessary. I wear whatever thats on top of my closet.

9) I LOVE DIVING.

Day 1

The first challenge..

1) I am really glad you are always there for me, every time i come to you with troubles I always go off learning something new :D

2) I wish i could be a better friend to you, for all the times we call each other best friends, i know less of you than anyone else. :( sometimes i just find that really sad..

3) Maybe you really could be a better person if i weren't here, i just hope you would change and become more awesome than me.

4) I don't think I ever hated anyone but if i was asked, you would be the closest. I still couldn't believe some of the things you had done, i mean why?? Why did you do it? Did we hurt you that badly? Do you hate us that much?

5) I wish we didnt grow up.. then we could spend all our time at the court playing basketball all over again...

6) I hope I didnt hurt you or anything.. You were the closest person not in my family that i would actually say I loved.

7) You taught me something about people who don't know how to draw boundaries.. and that closeness dont = feelings. Please don't assume other people can get close to just anyone..

8) Please.. Learn to bath or at least use deodorants.

9) I have no idea are you being a sincere friend or just cause it's convenient to you, (not necessary one person) but please.. this is not my idea of friendships.. Friends care when their friends dont attend uni, when they dont join them for activities, and definitely when they sound sad. Not ignoring them...

10) I have wronged you again and again and yet you forgave me, please give me the strength not to wrong you again..

10 Day challenge..

Saw this on someone's blog the other day. I found it really interesting and since i'm bored now.. why not? hahahaha

Day one: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. (dont have to specify who they are)

Day two: Nine things about yourself

Day three: Eight ways to win your heart

Day four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Day five: Six things you are afraid of

Day six: Five things you cant live without

Day seven: Four turn offs

Day eight: Three turn ons

Day nine: Two aspirations

Day ten: One confession