Crap

There was a few moments when i felt maybe hmm.. i should change the title of this blog. Life's not that bad anymore. :D but today.. i've felt it. The feeling when i first started this blog. The need for me to write things here. I know a blog is supposed to share your feelings and such with people and not this. To write about your crap emo stuff and put it online. But i just feel better after..

Life sucks. People can give you all kind of motivational talks and quotes. I have to say I can give better quotes than most but in the end, :(. nothing. No quotes, no talks no nothing can help you if you're depressed. Only yourself. I thought maybe if you found someone special? Nope. I just found it more depressing. Maybe if you had friends to talk to about life? They can listen but then what? It still ends up the same. I cant do it much longer.

All my life, i've lived on miracles. Not major ones like ressurection but minor ones thats important to my life. Now i think its time to face to music. And it sucks.

I thought I found someone special to talk to. I thought we connected on every level. But no.. In the end, it was a fantasy. It was imaginary. And the truth hurts. Not THE TRUTH. but the truth but maybe there isnt any romantic crap like those on tv. people just need the idea to survive their lives. And although i can accept that. It just sucks.

I've had enough. No more day dreaming. No more fantasies. No more.