Friends

Well..
When one laughs, everyone laughs with him.
When one cries, he cries alone..

I've heard it being said that true friends are those who are with you through tears and joy. Well.. for me, when i was happy, everyone laughed with me. But now when i'm sad.. There's no one. Are friends really like this? Or maybe people who i thought to be my friends aren't truly friends. Perhaps i dont have any friends. Perhaps i only thought that i had. Where are those i called friends? Where are they when i needed them? NO where.

In a lot of manga like the Law of Ueki and all those, they are always saying of how they want to protect their friends and then BOOM super power! Haha. Its a pile of bullshit. If its really true, even small little things like when they're sad we'll know.. Perhaps its true that sometimes we make friends because they are useful..


Haha.. god asked us to make disciples of all nations, not make friends of all nations. He didnt say love your friends, but love your neighbours. WHat then are friends? Are they people who will stay by your side no matter what? Will they really be there when you need them? I find that to be untrue.. I do admit i've seen many friendships that are strong and bonded together for many years or throughout their lifetimes. But for me, i've not found such a friend, Even my best friend (or at least i thought he was).

Well, maybe its just me. Maybe i'm just bad at making friends. Maybe its my character that caused all this pain. Whatever the cause, it hurts. Through this pain though, i've learned a lot. Dont depend on friends. Depend on yourself. It's easier and a journey that i can undertake.