Starting 3rd year med school soon :)

Today i finished my second year medical school exam. Not sure about you, but i think it sounds cool. :P WOOHOO! second year done.

I remember my first semester, i knew crap. I mean i learnt about stuff but its different from what i expected. I was imagining myself running around, intense moments following doctor around, telling me how to save a patient, what to do in a cardiac failure, what to inject when patient is having a coma. Instead i was reading about cellular structures, and then some calculations stuff about epidemiology. Now looking back, i know its important but at that time, it just "didnt fit into what i expected" and i didnt put in much effort. Its stupid but it happened.

If i could give my fresh med student self an advice, I would tell him "dude, look at other med stuff, u dont like this? then read up about the pathology, the anatomy, stuff that interest you, cause everything and i mean EVERYTHING will help you in medicine, every aspect of it. Extra reading is something that will not only help, it is required in studying medicine." I passed through all the exams barely, but this is me, a person who spent hours watching shows, and watching them twice or thrice. And i made it through. Im not saying its easy. Its not. It was hell, i always studied just before the exam, and i tell you the truth, if u do that in med school, it will be torture.

You will feel uncertainty, anxiety, and just plain worry. I kept asking myself
"what if i open the paper and i dont even understand the question?"
"did i study everything?"
"is what im reading even coming out for the exam?"
"Im gonna fail in that exam"
"i might as well plan what to do after i fail."

I mentioned i watched a lot of shows right? That includes Grey's anatomy (of course), House ( who wouldnt) and Scrubs (awesome show!). I watched it in my first year. Just before i started med school. i was clueless about what they were talking about and everytime a term like cysticercosis came up and i was studying it i would go WOOHOO! i know that!

Now today, when i just finished my second year, i watched season 2 of grey's anatomy, i saw the show was talking about a pregnant patient who had placenta tearing and i thought of "oh crap, emergency, gotta prepare for DIC) and then another, a baby with IRDS ( infant respiratory distress syndrome) i thought of surfactant and respiratory failure. It was small stuff, but it was kinda a proud moment for me.. I knew something. SOMETHING. im always saying two years in med school and i know nothing. I think thats not true. I do know SOMETHING. Its the confidence, as a med student, need to gain the confidence by reading or watching or something.. just need to constantly prep ourselves and be ready for when we finally finish med school. :P

But what do i know... im only just finishing second year. LOL